I've come to a conclusion.
I was having a conversation with one of the ladies that works in the office with me, which is rare because a.) we barely work together or b) when we do we're not allowed to talk, even if it's about work. If you knew my boss you'd understand. She's not a bad lady, she's actually nice once you get to know her, she just doesn't like any sort of chit chat or talking of any kind even if it's about work ….anyways we started talking, one day when she was leaving and I was just coming in, about dinner. She was looking for suggestion on what frozen dinner she should buy when she stopped at the grocery store. I sort of chuckled and said I wasn't familiar with what was good since I make majority of the things I eat from scratch. She looked at me so confused and said, Even bread??
As if making something from scratch was unusual. The she proceeded to question why on earth I would spend so much time making something when I could just as easily buy it. Without hesitation I answered I love to cook. I love to cook. It can be time consuming, but I love everything about cooking; the experimenting and trying out new ingredients and thing, the creation of something delicious, the memories, the smells, the flavors, the fun. Everything.
Well, today I went to the Christmas Tree shop to start some Christmas shopping. While I did pick one small stocking stuffer, I ended up with a carriage full of goodies for the pantry. I picked up parchment paper, all kinds of interesting condiments, imported sodas and pasta's, and many other things that I wouldn't find at a normal grocery store. I thought back to a few months ago when I went to Tj Maxx. Most normal people would come home with all sorts of designer clothes for cheap, but not me, I come home with a bag full of goodies from the kitchen and gourmet food section. Grocery shopping is even my favorite thing to do. I can't bring a list. I like to see what there is and work with what I find. Who like grocery shopping?? Not many people I know.
As much as I love my other creative hobbies, I love cooking. I've been doing it since I was a young girl and I haven't gotten sick of it yet.
So my conclusion is that out of all my hobbies cooking is my passion. I should have known this seeing as I wanted to go to culinary school when I graduated and wanted to open a bakery. I had big plans but things happen and choices were made; you can't go back to the past. The only thing I can do is use this to move towards the future.
Cooking is my life.