30 hits, then BOOM!. Everything starts making sense. I know I've written about this before but everything seems to be falling in to place just as it should. I know, I know. I only turned 30 in January, but I've started to feel different since I hit 29. I never felt quite right, but I knew I was headed where I needed to be.
It was the beginning.
The Beginning. Whoa. I'm not a stupid girl. How did I not notice these two simple words before?
Everyone starts at the beginning. It doesn't matter what you choose or what you do. You have to start somewhere and that place is The beginning. No one starts with perfection. The more you do, the more you learn, the more you practice, the better you get. It doesn't matter what it is. If you're determined. You will get where you want to be. I wish I had realized this back in my early 20's when I was just starting school because I'd probably be in a different place but I also am a big believer in the saying that "things happen for a reason". I needed to go through everything I did to get to the point I am at today. I also needed to meet my wonderful husband.
If it weren't for him being supportive and offering encouraging words, telling me daily, that I knew what I wanted to do, and to do what I wanted, what I felt in my bones, without anyone offering their opinions or discouragements, I probably would still be going through my spiral of confusion. He stuck with me and encouraged me through my many decisions and major changes. Although I know I annoyed him at times, I needed to figure out for myself without anyone's interference. Even his. And he knew that. For so long I let other people opinions of what's realistic or not, discourage me from listening to what I knew already. I wasn't 'Perfect' so I got discouraged so I tried following that same path that everyone else was taking, only to realize that the only path I need to follow was the one with my name on it.
We're all different. We all start somewhere. That somewhere is The Beginning..
I'm no longer discouraged in my abilities. Am I perfect? No. Who is? But I'm learning everyday and getting better as I go along. I also know that the path I'm on is finally the right one.
It doesn't matter what you want to do. If you feel that it is something you are meant to do, DO IT. Don't make the same mistake that I did. Don't let people discourage you, or talk you out of it. Don't be discouraged in your abilities. Don't just follow a certain path because 'that's what everyone else is doing'. And most certainly, don't let money or status dictate your path. Money isn't everything. It doesn't matter what everyone else is doing. Do what you want. You'll be happier that way.