Today started off with the usual case of the Mondays. You'd think because I had the day off it wouldn't have happened but I felt 'blah'. I've been thinking a lot because I've got a lot on my mind at the moment. I try not to let it get my down but I was just feeling 'blah.' I blame Monday! I hate feeling 'blah'. Well I went about my usual routine, making breakfast, tidying up things left out from the night before, making beds, lunch and getting Jacob ready for school.
Then I went outside to drive Jacob to school. The sun was shining and it was a gorgeous day. When I got home from dropping him off I sat down tried to have a coffee but I couldn't sit still. I couldn't waste this beautiful morning. It was just a gorgeous day. I needed to go for a walk. I grabbed my MP3 player, blasted the music and headed out to clear my head.
I love my neighborhood. It's perfect for walking. There are probably over 30 different routes I could take. Every day my walk is almost the same, but I always try to walk down a new street, or different part of the town.
Even with the music blasting in my ears I still think. The upbeat/club style music I listen to helps me think more positively and puts me in a great mood. I don't think I have the ability to shut my brain off. Lol. It gets annoying something. But it's all good. I'm always thinking about something. Well on this walk, I was thinking about the past.
Past choices and 'What if's'. Missed Opportunities. Insecurities. Lost friendships. So many different things.
Well, when I walked back to my apartment complex, I was in a great mood and inspired to creat this simple Smash Book layout.
Live and Learn.
It's hard not to dwell on the 'What if's" But I've decided the only thing that I can do is learn from my mistakes, become a better person and move forward and work towards making my life into everything that I imagined.
The only way I can look at it, is I am the person I am today because of those choices. Who knows who I would have been if I had taken a different path. It doesn't really matter. All that matters is now.