Monday, July 7, 2014

Change Scrapbook: First page


 (just a peek at another layout that I will show later on)

Hello Monday! Today at work was slow but it was productive and positive. Changes are coming, within all areas of my life and I am ready.  I know I mentioned in a previous post that I was going to delete my personal Facebook, well Sunday I went ahead and actually did it.  Surprisingly I didn't have any hesitation. I usually think the crap out of stuff, but I didn't think at all. I knew I wanted a clean slate and just hit yes, and it was "Bye" account.  Of course I already set up another one so I could set up my Facebook page for this blog. I didn't know of any way of saving the page since it was connected to my account that I wanted to delete.  I discovered a way after the fact, but oh well! I guess that will be part of the fresh start too. When I get official confirmation of two thing I am waiting for then I will set up my New  personal account again.  The two things I'm waiting for have been major obstacles for me, and getting confirmation of them starting will be the beginning of the New Beginning.

So, what inspired this whole Fresh start/change thing? Well, it was a recent interaction I had with an individual….it wasn't necessarily just this person but it was a series people/interactions/questions/talks/"signs" I had just within the last year or so. This interaction was the straw that broke the camels back and made me really think. Not only just this interaction, but it was the questions that kept presenting themselves.



When you can't answer questions about yourself - what your goals are? what do you want out of life? what you want to do? and what are you passionate about? What interests you? - without clamming up, shying away or avoiding answering the questions all together, you know something needs to change. That's what happened to me.  Way back before I can even remember I used to have goals but a series of things in my life have formed me into the person I am today. I'm not going to sit here and dwell and whine because I have accepted things for what they are. I've done OKAY for myself, considering some things, but somewhere along the way, I lost sight of myself. Majority of my life I've worried so much about doing no wrong and doing things for others and it's time for me to be a little selfish and think about me for once. I need to get back on track with my goals



I tend to be a perfectionist and HATE admitting that I have flaws, but I've recently realized that it's okay to have those flaws, but it's not okay to let those flaws take control of my life. I have to accept the things that I can't change, and move forward live the life I want to live. It's certainly not going to be easy. I know that but it will be good.



I don't have anything figured out but I'm working towards it. I don't think anyone has everything figured out anyway. If they did, that person would be rich because everyone would go to them for advice.

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2 comments:

  1. Keep the power going, good for you! Love the Emerson quote.

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  2. Sometimes it does take something like that to shake us up. I think we have to be ready for it (change) and that's when everything starts to fall into place, like it is for you!!

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