So, I'm taking a Literature and Human rights course this semester. I wasn't really sure what to expect from the class, but it was the only one left that fit the requirements to obtain my degree that sounded somewhat interesting so I decided to go for it. There were a few non lab science courses, and some silly ones , like a class to learn about dinosaurs - but I prefer literature over science and wanted to really take away something from the class, so I went with this. Plus it fills two of my requirements, so I'm killing two birds with one stone. One less class to take! Whoot!
Not only is the class with the rumored best professor on campus, it will be good for this whole confidence/speaking up for myself thing I struggle witih because participation in the discussion accounts for majority of the grade. There are no tests or quizzes, just two papers and class participation.
One thing we talked about the first class was the importance of being yourself and standing up for your beliefs and why people are complicit. We talked about a lot of things that day - 5 pages front and back worth of written notes & 6 handouts read - but one of the things we discussed was beliefs; Whether we have a choice or not, why we should or shouldn't have a choice and who decides what choices we are allowed to make (laws, etc). We talked about values, and how they are different from one person to the next and sometimes we as humans lose sight of those values and go with the flow of everyone around use.
This layout I started before school even started but I feel that it fits perfectly into this theme of what I am writing about.
Then we discussed the topic of when you're continuously told something you start to believe it's true, even when it's not in accordance with your internal beliefs. The example my professor brought up was a parent continuously putting down a child to the point where they have serious self esteem issues and starts to believe what they are told, …why the heck does this theme keep popping up in my life??, or when you're not exposed to other views or opinions because you're brought up a certain way, so you believe that that is the only way of life. Granted, all of the topics are a lot more serious than what I am going through, but I excited to learn about the struggles and triumphs of others and hear the interpretations and views of my fellow classmates.
I don't care if it sounds strange to anyone else. This is my time. This is the place I need to be. Everything is pointing me in this direction and I am really ready for this change that is happening in my life. I don't know exactly what I want anymore -did I ever, thought? Probably not. I was kind of just going along with everyone's opinions and not listening to myself -, but with the way things are going I know I will figure it out. It's not going to be easy but I just have to forge on ahead and let life work out itself one day at a time. I'm excited to read these required books. They are different from the books I normally read, but I think they will open up a whole new perspective for me. And I am excited.