What a day! A good one and now I am unwinding, eating toast and drinking some aloe juice drink I picked up at the store the other day. I woke up not feeling that well this morning but I had a busy day and I didn't want to back out of any of it. I had something to do in the morning, then I came home for about two hours, squeezed in a bit of reading then headed to work. I actually feel okay now, except for the fact that my nose it a bit stuffed up. It's all good though.
When I came home there was a letter in the mailbox waiting for me from school. You're all going to think I'm weird for being excited about this but it was a letter telling my I had been approved for Financial Aid and what my reward was. I literally did a happy dance. You have no idea what this means. I don't really feel like explaining but THIS IS A BIG DEAL. I am more excited about school than ever now. It's going to take a few years but I am getting my degree. This is it. And this just confirms that I am on the right track.
I wish I could explain in words how I feel about my life at the moment. I feel like I am where I need to be. And everything is falling into place. There are lots of changes going on and while I am a bit nervous about moving on and growing into this new self I am excited to the welcome changes. My whole mindset has changed completely. There's a lightness about me now whereas before I felt heavy - like a dark cloud was hanging over my head. That dark cloud is gone. Even if things don't work out in my life as I am hoping, I am grateful for every experience that I have encountered - good and bad - because those experiences made me into the person that I am today.
This isn't a new me. This is the me that I have always wanted to be.